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Joy

2 Nephi 2:25 Adam fell that men might be; and me are that they might have joy.

I have been thinking a lot about joy lately and how I can find it and have it. I believe we do exist that we might have joy and so I should be searching for it. I think joy presents itself is many different ways. For me I have always associated it with those moments when I felt connected with something eternal. It's interesting as I have been looking for joy these last few months that I have found it in very small places and often small moments.

I felt joy in making a baby laugh. I felt joy as I walked outside and felt the warm sun on my skin. I felt joy in a conversation shared with a friend. I felt joy in the exhausted moment after a great tennis rally. I felt joy in the five year old I just met who couldn't wait to hug me. I felt joy in laughing with friends. I felt joy as I had a tickle fight with a three year old.

Finding joy seems to take more patience than effort. I also learned that it requires hope. I guess that means this next month I will work on finding more hope.

Teacups

It had been forever since I had been on the teacups and Emma convinced me we should go on them. She could not however convince dad that it was a good idea, so he was our photographer and documented the whole experience.

We very carefully selected which teacup we should ride in so I would like to draw your attention to the spade with the blue and gold. It was high class.

Getting up speed and Emma getting scared!

Spinning! Look at Emma's hair fly! Okay, that is deceiving. We actually spun as little as was possible, but we can pretend.

Crazy happy girls.

We finished up with some serious conversation. Probably discussing which color of dumbo we were going to ride after this. (We chose green.)

I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired

I've been annoyed at the world today. Right now, I blame the fact that this is my fourth (or eighth, depends what counts) sickness of the year, the fact that I haven't been able to breath out of my nose for almost 3 days, haven't been able to stand up without getting dizzy for 2 days, haven't been able to leave my house (except for 3 tiny excursions I deemed necessary for my sanity), and now feeling like my throat is on fire every time I swallow.

Keeping me cooped up with only my thoughts for 2 days could be dangerous. I am definitely in need of some awesome tennis or a good hard run. (Those are out of the question until I recover!) This was sure a way to get me to slow down. I resisted (am still resisting) but I am now facing some of those things I have feared thinking about. Heavenly Father knows what's best.

World, I am sorry for the unwarranted annoyance. I will try to make it up to you in the future.